My Bestfriend, My Inspiration

Hello everyone!

            Now, i’m gonna share about an interview i did with my best friend. But first, i’m gonna introduce you about him.

I have a childhood best friend. I met him when i was 7 and still a best friend until now. His name is Maulana Rahmadi and called Nanang. I really love him. He doesn’t has any achievement or anything “special” to be interviewed actually.

So...when i was a little kid, i was a crybaby, i cried a lot. I never feel confident, especially because of my fat body and my immaturity. I always want to be those cool kids, but i knew i can’t. I always treated as a laughing stock. That’s why cry a lot when i was a kid. I still do until i reach junior highschool.

But, as i grow old together with him, we know each other very well. And i find something about him is very interesting, he has something common with me. immature.

People usually become mature as he grow up, but Nanang is always act immature, until now. And usually, immature person always unaccepted by their friends. And i know he must have been bullied/unaccepted sometimes. But i never see him crying or even feel sad about that.

So i ask him,

“do you even realize that sometimes you act immature”.

“Of course."

“if you realize it, do you even feel ashamed by yourself. Or... you know, i know sometimes you feel you’re weird and different, then why don’t you try to act mature and grow up?”

“Why? Of course sometimes i feel weird, but does that matter? I had fun being like this. And i know many people who is immature like me, like you. Sometimes, i bring people happiness by being like this.”

“But you know not everyone gonna like you if you always act immature like that”

“I know, i don’t really care. Because, this is me. I’m immature, i live like this. I’m a grown up, i’m gonna be an adult soon. I know who i am, i’m this ‘immature’ person. Deal with it!

“Well, i know you must have been not accepted or bullied by your friends because your character, don’t you? What were you gonna do about it?”

“Yes i have, and it hurts so much. Especially when you’re still a pre-teen and want to be accepted by everyone. I always tried to change, but i can’t and it makes me sad.

But as i growing up, as i learn who i am. I realize that this is me, everyone has their own character, and this is mine. So i have to live with it, i have to make everyone to understand my immaturity, i have to blend and accepted by my friends with my character. Not trying to be someone else so people will accept me.

And as i said before, i happy with my immaturity, someone happy with my immaturiy, and there are many other immature people. So i’m never alone, i’m unique.”

“Ohh... that’s deep. So, you won’t try to be mature”

“No, i mean.. i know it how to act mature, i know how and when to act like that. But i don’t have to act mature everytime, instead i have to be myself! I mean, of course when my friend depressed and think about suicide... of course i won’t act immature and joking about his problem, that will make him really suicide.

So the point is, my immaturity is my character. And i mature enough to understand about my immaturity, my character and know how to use them properly”

“So, what do you think about your immaturity?”

Well, it’s a grace, it’s what makes me unique. And immaturity makes me forget all the problem and be happy, so why should i try to remove something that makes me happy?”

So, after that little chat. I realize that he had a same problem with me, not accepted by friends. But he has something that makes people don’t like him, but he doesn’t care because it makes him unique and happy. Instead, he make people like him because his “bad character”.

Then i realized again, i was a crybaby, but now i’m tough as hell. And that’s because i grew up with someone who is as immature as me, but stronger than me, Nanang. I learnt sooo many things from him, though i didn’t realize it. I learnt how to be happy with being myself, with my weirdness, with my immaturity. All thanks to Nanang.

Now, i can fit and blend with a new friends with my character and my body. I don’t feel unconfident and ashamed anymore. I’m happy being myself. 

Nanang? he still immature, even now i think he is more immature than me and sometimes i feel annoyed by him. But i never angry to him, i know that that is what makes me love him, his immaturity. I accept him. As a best bestfriend.

So, that’s all an “interview” with my friends. Something i learnt from him and my own experience is :

Know yourself, understand yourself, and live with it. Then you can find your own happiness from yourself. Just be yourself.

Okay, Goodbye everyone!

 

Me and Nanang